To be back out in Laghman. Garrison life bores me, civilian life terrifies me, deployment was the best time I ever had. No bullshit, no petty stress. I’m gonna miss being able to get out there and get after it with the guys. They’ll all be there next year and I wont be able to go with them. Part of me feels like this life suits me, and that I should stick with it, but the other part of me wants to get out and get away before I can’t get out. I have no idea what to do.